Mixed up

Mood: Depressed and wanting
Tunes: "Charlotte Sometimes'' The Cure
I'm struggling within myself. I wish I know what I was ment to do. If everything became clear... If I knew what my viloent dreams ment... If I knew why!! Mother is making me go to hippie church! I have no reason to go.. Ohh my dreams are getting worse... the shadow is more presant.. It is all I can think about.... Whatever IT may be... who do you think IT is?? (or what it is)